Friday

6.10am: Woke up

6.35am: Off to school

7.00am: Reached school

7.30am: Class started

......

I noticed I'm a bit depressed these days, I have no idea why. What is happening to me? I almost quarreled with my classmate whom sat beside me, I was like so emotional 'til I think I had said something that had offended her. Well, I am truly sorry if you see this because I really am do not know what is going on with me. Or may be, just may be, she had not sleep properly the other night. So, the tiring feeling is still there and she had a headache that morning. I hate people who acted strangely!

I tried, but do not succeed. I can't get through to you. We used to be friends like sisters. But now we are not. We do not talk, laugh or even smile. I tried to talk but you do not listen; I tried to understand but you do not let me. How could this happen me?

Oh, so now I see your true face...

When you know, you show off everywhere;

when you do not know, you annoy someone..

How can you do this? This is so not fair!

Hey, I have something to show you:

Don't understand? It says:"Quit bitching!". Bitch!!

I hate you!

I hate being the one who always have to hold things together.

I am tired of putting in so much effort but in the end...you don't even care.

Disappointment, the worst feeling ever.

On the verge to give up...

"I give and give, even when I get nothing back - and that sets me up for disappointment."

Angie Stone

Get a life,

Young aka LianQing

Not in the mood...

Song currently listening to: Sweet Serendipity

I had tolerate with you for almost a year! At first, things were fine but since yesterday, it had turned upside down. Congratulations, you had finally get on my nerves. I will not tolerate with you anymore! You are such a jerk! You had disgraced the face of men just because of your attitude towards girls. I know you are playful but being playful has its limits too, and you had just passed that borderline. If English people know what you did, they'll slap you or spit to you or even kill you and hang you high up. You do not know the tactic of being a gentleman, may be you'll said ''oh, I have my own rights to not becoming a gentleman.'' Fine, nobody forces you. Problem is, is it correct to treat a female like this? Or offend a female by saying dirty words? These are all a form of sexual harassment and one can sue you. You're studying Science and not Law that is why you do not realize. How come I know? This is because I read before such information.I despise boys like you, all of them!

Why is my life so miserable? I am always the victim of bully, although at times it seems to be the other way around but the truth is, I had always been bullied. Is it because of me being ugly? Or me being too fat(and y'all do not like)? Or y'all fond of me and want to get my attention(that's not gonna happen right?)? Or y'all just simply wanna make fun of someone and I am so 'lucky' to be the subject of the day? Shit man! You know I do not like these activities. Why can't just you guys be a bit mature and leave me alone? I hate people play jokes on me! If you like to be part of the joke, go on, please don't add me in because I hate it! I can bear with it sometimes but sometimes no. See what kind of jokes. I'll try to ignore you as possible as I can.

In conclusion, you are no longer my friend! Get out of my life!

Get a life,

Young aka LianQing

Is It Stress or Behavior?

I wonder what happen lately? Everybody seems emotional. Is it because that Upper 6's first monthly test is coming or everybody has a character-wash? Hmmm.... *in deep thinking*

Anyway, is okay to whether there's exams or not. Honestly speaking, I'm not the kind of kia-su type so exams or not I don't really care. But of course there's still a part of me wanna study. Lol!

I do not know what to write as today I have no writing-blog-mood.

So it'll be short and simple=)

Ciao!

Young aka LianQing

Success!!

Yet another day of not talking to you automatically and you do not seem to bother asking why. I assume that you are happy with your life now that i had backed away and out of your life. Maybe because you have not realize what happen to us but I know clearly. Maybe you are still blurring why and how. I'm sorry to tell you that unless you apologize if not I would not ever think of forgiving you! It hurts me a lot when you treated me like this, I had always feel proud to have somebody like you. Unfortunately, you do not seem to appreciate that, that's why we are in this condition.

My Friendship...

I thought i had found the perfect friend,

but it took me a year to find out that to end.

I thought there was hope left in my life,

But it turned out to be a strife.

I thought for once i had done something right,

But I was wrong.

I thought I wasn't useless or stupid,

But I was all that and even more.

I thought there was a purpose to my days,

But that was only a very short phase.

I thought you were not like all the rest,

But as usual, you had failed the test.

I thought you would stay with me,at least for a bit,

But you decided it was better just to quit.

I thought life was worth living for a moment in time,

But the life I wanted could not realize.

You think it doesn't hurt me,

But it did!

Looking to my left and right to see there's no you,

But we both are moving on now,

You got your friends and I got mine,

I hope our friendship still lives on in your memory...

Heart became cold,

Young aka LianQing

The Definition of Friendship

信题目与内容是没有关系的......

最近都觉得心情很低落，不知为什么。

每每看见身边的朋友高兴地和自己的‘党’谈天说地时，我总是问自己：‘‘你的gang呢？为什么别人有，你没有？’’我也总是告诉自己：‘‘我有啊！大把呢！’’事实上，我只有我自己。

到底，朋友是什么？是拿来利用,还是在你心情低落时可以诉苦的，然后高兴时就把他一脚踢开？这些就是我所认识的朋友。到目前我还没看到一个像大家所说的“朋友”，就是那种有福同享，有难同当的朋友。一个真正的朋友是不会隐瞒自己的秘密；更不会吝啬告诉他朋友他自己的秘密。好朋友是会分享与分担！而不是好像在吸毒似的隐瞒！你若没做伤天害理的事干嘛不能分享？难道我知道了就会拿着扩音器到处帮你宣扬？我是这么样的一个人吗？认识我这么多年，你难道还不了解我？你没听过独乐乐不如众乐乐？就算你不想让很多人知道也不该连好朋友都忽略了，问你你又不说，还好意思跟我说你有很多东西跟我讲，其实是找话题与我聊吧！我这次真的对你彻底的失望。我真是笨到把你当成我最要好的朋友！竟然你变得那么多，我必须重新理解你，也不需要浪费那么多时间在你身上了，因为你已经不需要我这么笨的朋友了。对吗？在你心目中，我只是一个利用的对象而已。不要紧啦，我的一生是注定被朋友利用的，我是找不到之己的！对吗？你很开心吗，把我给一脚踢开？也许你不介意，但我介意！人家说，一生的好友是学生时代建立的，如果你真正懂得恋爱是短暂的而友情是一辈子的，那你就不会让生活只有情人而忽略友情！

谢谢你曾经让我开心过，虽然是短暂且不真实的......

Heart became cold,

Young aka LianQing

Website Under Construction

Oh my Gods! I never touch my blog for a whole year! I just remember i have a blog. Lol! Anyway,I'm quite busy this year so the blog is under 'renovation'. Please be patient. Thank you~

Love,

Young aka LianQing