Exams.....

After finished watching the last episode of City Hunter, a Korean drama, I am a bit emotional. The ending is a bit not clear. And something was on my mind that's why I got emotional. *Sigh*

But, honestly, that drama is nice. A piece of successful work done =)

Why did I get emotional? It's because of you...

You are queer,

you said that some things you said is not true,

but your expression tells it all.

How can I trust you anymore?

You said that I am your best friend,

is it true?

Did you mean it? The words that you said.

You acted that way whenever you're with you-know-who,

you ignored my existence,

you even not remembered it.

Yet you still carry on as usual like nothing,

but there's someone who felt it,

and that's the person whom existence is not important.

I am happy with my buddy,

always would and always will,

bet you don't even got jealous,

you got yours too after all.

We're like BFFs on the surface,

actually we're not,

we both know we're just faking it,

to live through this a year and a half.

I had not once, but many times fell into that relationship trap.

To tell you the truth,

not anymore.

Hate,

LianQing aka daughter of Ares

Felt stress whenever got stuck between you two. You were best friends then, not anymore now. Why do so? Why not stay together even though both characters are different? Aren't BFFs always tolerate and share with each other? Say out their opinions on each other whenever feel like want to. That way, they can be BFFs for life! No worries at all even if there's an ocean lies between them.

Well, it's different in my case. They are two totally different ladies with totally different attitudes with totally different point of views. As they aged, their relationship worsens. If I have the gift of telepathy then I may know what they are thinking. Too bad I have none of the gifts. I just hope that you guys grow up and stop all the childish activities that y'all are doing. Okay? Give some response, people!

Feels like posting something but got no topic. *Laugh out loud*

These few days may not be able to online because I will be busy visiting uncle's malay friends' house as tomorrow is Hari Raya. Got to get money! So excited! And then there's this book fair at Kuala Lumpur's KLCC which I am going too. Must be tiring. It's okay, pack schedules let me forget about my stress. So, here goes nothing~

Wish me luck, peeps!

Jokes can be fun, stress-releasing.

But, jokes which came out from a brainless guy—it ain't funny at all! You are just like any typical guys whom like to insult or tease people. Can you imagine how a person can fall off from a short chair with a loud thud? This is so brainless! And I chose not to tease you back because I am one person who doesn't know how to express myself correctly. If I tease you back, may be would be the wrong words, and then you will use back the same words I used when there's another similar situation in-play.

Funny, isn't it? You think it's funny? Well, I think not all. You are just a bunch of lame guys doing the lamest thing in the world. It's like you have no any other things to do. I pity these kind of guys. Not only guys, there's girls who are like that too. It's just I haven't encountered this species yet.

Just to tell you:

You are the last person I had ever want to talk to!

I thought that being with you is like being with buddy, but it seems that my assumptions were wrong...

I still remember whenever I have feelings to share, you will support me no matter what, you will give me some advice to make me understand, some jokes to cheer me up.

Now, you joke on me together with the things I told you. You no longer show the sympathy you had once. You became the devil together with my bad feelings.

I hated you for that, I do not understand why you did that but I think I know for some reasons you backed away. I have less friends that you could imagine although I am surrounded by friends all day long. That's just the surface.

Why must you do that?

Is it me or you that has changed?

You're no longer the old you anymore and I'm not the old me anymore.

I feel sick when you treated me like that.

Like I am not used to be one of your best buddies.

Like I am a nuisance, just another page of your life.

I know, I have some attitudes that you dislike.

But, shouldn't best buds let each other know their flaws?

So that they can correct it together?

So that they can be perfect together?

Well, guess that you're not gonna tell me any time soon.

I was hurt before and you don't even notice.

I was ignored before and you don't even care.

I tried to talk but you wouldn't listen.

All the time, I am the one listening.

Do you know that?

Of course you don't. Because you only talk and talk and talk.

And I never interrupt because I love you.

And I never wanna let you down for not listening to you.

I appreciate the many years of friendship we constructed.

I envy those who too have best buds.

Why? Because they love and value each other.

Of course, I am dreaming because those feelings only appear in movies.

I am truly disappointed, not because of you but because of me.

I once thought that, you will tolerate with my naive-ness because you value this friendship..

But I was wrong..

Guess that we'll be just friends from now on.

I am sorry, it's not that I do not want to save this friendship, it is the situation that's not appropriate.

Sometimes forgotten, is the best relief;

Sometimes silence, it is best to tell.