CNY Day 2

In Chinese we call it年初二, this is times where we visit maternal side relatives, so did I. This year was livelier~ Second and fourth aunt came back from Kuala Pilah and Balakong respectively and we gathered at my grandma's, that will be the place for our gathering. After some chit-chat we went to few places to visit. Mom's side cousins are too many, until I do not know who's who. *Laughing out loud* But then I did enjoyed it much as those people could only be seen once a year. And then there's angpaos given by the elders. *Smirking*

And then we had a big reunion dinner among mom's brother and sisters and us cousins.
After dinner we headed back to headquarter, that would be my grandma's to continue chit-chat again. Then 4th aunt started blackjack. She's good at gambling. Sure win situationXD

Well, that's almost my day for today.

A photo of me wearing dress@@

Gambling time~

Daughter of Ares

Happy Chinese New Year!

Hey-yo, peeps! It's been awhile, again, that I did not update me blog. I admit that I was lazy, but then sometimes I will still update it. So no worries. Today's the first day of CNY, visited my aunt and then I am home all day long. Still waiting for another uncle and family to come over. I wonder how's gonna be like for this year's new year. To tell the truth, I do not have the CNY mood at all@_@ May be because we are growing older as years gone by and do not enjoy that much anymore. Perhaps.. Then there's reunion lunch and dinner yesterday. The same menu every year. *Laughing out loud*

Biao jie came back from Groningen, Netherlands to celebrate CNY in hometown this year, and we're going to have a big reunion dinner tomorrow night. I am so looking forward to it! Exited! And Sab the cartoon called to ask if tomorrow I am available or not. I will try to make time for tomorrow. Tomorrow will be a year since we met at Popular Bookstore. And still keeping in touch well. Cool isn't it? And this is our first CNY together~

I cannot deny that my life did had many interesting stories to uncover. There's still more to go for me to discover.

Happy Chinese New Year!

Daughter of Ares

Meaningful=)

朋友就算再好
總會有一段時間
互不理睬互不關心

不是因為厭煩了
不是因為認識新朋友了
也不是因為喜新厭舊了

真正的朋友是
當一段冷漠的時間過去了
還是依然在你的身邊
關心你和你一起打鬧一起吵架

許久不見後再相聚也不會尷尬 像往日一樣
還是有說不完的話題 講不完的心事和八卦 ♥

『This is what people said. Is it true too in real life?』

Daughter of Ares

Long time no see

Hello blogger! It's been a while since I log in to ya, you miss me? Well, to things like you, you sure missed me a lot. But, to person, it's a different story. I had been reminded to forget and forget and forget. I had been told to let go and let go and let go. Things won't be the same as it was then. I have to understand that. While I am walking back-and-fro hesitating and clinging to hope, the subject had apparently moved on. What was all that about? People are forgetting things, and yet, I am still standing at the original place, hoping that you'd come back one day. How many times had I written that I am waiting? I am starting to get tired of it.

Perhaps this ain't a good year for me. Our meeting was a mistake. Our relationship was a huge mistake. I was supposed to cherish my old relationships but then I let it fall off just like that. Tell you what, no more next time!

I will avenge for myself.
I need strength!

Daughter of Ares

The unknown

I am not all-known. I thought I was until I discover it myself. I thought we're best friends. Aren't best friends chat all the time? Even the slightest things they talk.

If you approach me to talk stupid things, I am sure I will be thrilled. On the other hand, you are on the different side, well, guess that you are really a typical girl. No offence.

Daughter of Ares

Sunday

All these while, I thought I am someone important. I was wrong.
I am actually an annoying friend who irritates you, aren't I? I didn't know I am so annoying. For this, I apologize. I will not bother you further more and will not act like a kid in front of you anymore. Perhaps, I will be more serious if that's what you want. Now only I know the very huge difference between me and the others. A friend once said, do not bother what others think of you, just be yourself, if you change because you wanted to fit in, then what's the purpose of you living? Yes, I think she's right. I will not change what defines me. And I will bring this personalities to continue living. I am sorry to say that I will not display my true self in front of you anymore, it's not worth it. It was a past, something that should lock up inside of me long ago. I do not understand why I am so stupid that I still wanted to blindly believe in miracles? It won't happen in my case. I thought I knew you well, the fact is, I do not know you at all. Pity, isn't it?

原来我没有你偶像那么重要。
原来答应过的事可因为看偶像的新闻而忘记。
原来我是那么的天真，被骗了都不知道。
期待了很久，却是一场空。
昔日美好的时光已不复在，
往事只能回味…

Daughter of Ares

The wrong person

This entry should be posted yesterday but then I reached home too late and therefore I decided to write it today.

Borrowed cousin's car and went to some place that can online, faster internet she said. I am confused why I wanted to offer myself in the first place as I have unlimited internet access at home@_@ I still don't understand until now...
So we went for online and I sat there read my novels and did some readings on the internet. It was something like solving mysteries but in a scary and not-logical way. Interesting questions they had there. Gonna continue it after finish blogging =)

Had dinner with cousin and the other friends at 8pm. Everything went well during dinner, only some minor uneasiness from me. But I was getting used to it, that's okay. A friend of mine suddenly suggested to catch a late night movie at Dataran Pahlawan which was near to where we were having dinner that night. All of us knew that Sab was like Cinderella, she had curfews and could not reach home late, late as in 11 something late, perhaps? Guessed so...
But then they tried to persuade her, persuade her to ask her parents and gave all sorts of funny ideas on how to inform her parents. I laughed at some of the funny jokes they said, but then the laugh was not from the heart, it's not true, it was something not sincere. As you know she can't be home late, she had curfews, as a good friend, we shouldn't prompt her into going for late night movies or joined us for some late night activities, but then we did. We wanted her to join and left her no choice. To tell you the truth, I do not wish myself to be in that 'we', I wanted out of these. I wanted her to be back before she was grounded or something. I do not want her parents to think that I am the one bad friend that mislead their precious daughter all these while. The decisions was all on herself, she wanted to be with us, so, no matter how I wished her to go home, she wouldn't listen to me.

I really do not want any of these. I wanna be simple, I hate to be misunderstood, I hate to be the bad friend. I hate to be everything! I told myself to be serious, to be one person that was not the past me. To show to people that I am not a kiddo anymore. Especially her. What happened in the theater, I do not wish to speak any of it. I was heartbroken. I could not care more any longer. Perhaps if I let things flow by itself, it'll turn out better than I expected. Hope so...

The new year came with an end to a friendship. A mistake. Stupidity.
The new year I will be stronger than the past. A faith. Believe.

Hope,
Daughter of Ares