我快疯了！四号、五号、六号都得加班！也就是说，星期三到星期五都被逼关在Popular里头，而且星期五接下来是星期六和星期日。不需要有预知能力我已经知道我肯定又有加班！哇！快疯了快疯了！谁来搭救我？我刚刚结束两天前连续四天的ot，前天才有一天的休假，然后今天早班因为有吉他班。然后明天......有一连串五天ot!打着工的朋友们，你们有我那么惨吗？就连工厂的Operators都没有我那么惨吧？Operators的工作肯定比在Popular做工的人的工作来得轻！连续五天耶！

自从来到Popular上班之后，我根本抽不出时间给我自己；身体也一天比一天差，再这样下去，我怕我自持不了。我一向都很健壮的，因为这份工使得我脾气又开始暴躁起来。家人问一点东西我就发脾气；做不到一件事或打错字就发脾气......糟了，我到底怎么了？我不是这样的，我已经戒掉乱发脾气这习惯很久了，为什么它又回来了？

今天来了24箱货，有漫画也有其他书。一整天搬上搬下，搬到腰又痛了，脚到现在都还在发抖，手指又一直被书夹到，痛死了！我很想笑，可我笑不出。那里的人有的很烦，有的很惹人厌，又有的做事不认真，你教我怎么还能继续做下去？我多数的时间全部都给了Popular，工资少且工作量重，还要整天看着那死鬼Manager的脸色办事，实在是很不自在！她今天时午班，听说心情又不好了。还好我是早班～可是明天开始......

还要熬多27天才可以脱离苦海T.T
如果你再继续一直让我加班，我这个月的某一天肯定倒下去然后要你送我去医院！
头痛是小事。我从来没有昏眩的感觉，但是最近一直都这样。为什么？你说，不是你害的吗？当初聘请员工的时候你有没有解释这里是怎么操作的？有多累多累？每晚都很迟才可以到家？你们有说吗？早知道你会放飞机，我就不会那么傻去答应要和你一起做工了。当初你也没告诉我这份工很辛苦、很累。之后你的一个电话就避开了所有的问题，你到底有没有把我当成你的好朋友？你说啊！我不问你原因是因为我不想到最后咱俩一拍即撒。我是个很珍惜友谊的人，若你被我盯上了，你就逃脱不了。但是，你这样的态度叫我如何再相信你呢？妈咪说你这种朋友可以不交，因为你很自私。我听不进去因为我们从中三开始就成为了好朋友。现在，我很矛盾。我们约好一起工作，你却。。。

我到底怎么了？
突然觉得好累。
不想活了。
可是这样就去死又很可惜。
怎么办？

Another rest day! And I wasted it at Dataran Pahlawan and Mahkota Parade with my BFFL!
We had watched a movie, Wrath of The Titans. It's a nice movie, not say I liked it much. But it's worth watching. We went out almost every week on my rest days, rest days are meant for resting at home not going out. *Laugh out loud* But I don't mind. As long as my legs can still move, I sure will go out! There's no way for me to stay at home, it's freedom! Working at Popular is like sitting in jail. I have so much over-times! I know, you'll feel happy if you got your salary but compare to other shops, some are higher and provide lighter works. Think about it. I can not stand anymore! I wanna get out of that silly place! Argh!!

Oh, and I bought a shirt, finally=D CONVERSE!!

 Yes! This is my another Converse T-shirt~

And then my BFF bought one too!

Every staff at Popular would be physically and mentally tired after the shop closes every Friday, Saturday and Sunday. One whole day full of people, annoying humans! They ask before they find. If you truly did not see it, then I can forgive ya, but you aren't! The moment you step into the store, you straight away look for a staff to inquire for things you wanted to buy. The truth is, you are not in a hurry at all. So why must ask? U can take your time to find that thing, not necessarily ask everything! This will make yourself look more annoying. And we staffs have loads of things to do. Pricing, arranging, etc...
We did all these are because of y'all!
Without us, do you think you can find what you want in a short time?
Without us, do you think you can browse through the aisle of books that smoothly and comfortably?
And yet, y'all still complain about us. This is so unfair! Think another way around. What if I am the customer and you are the worker? And then I treated you the way you treated we staffs. How'd you feel? This is common sense, my friend! I can't stand to see my colleague got complaint. *Sigh* Is this gonna be part of our working life once we had reach that level? This is so hard for me...

I got many cuts today while trying to do some pricing. *Laugh out loud* I am a clumsy and careless person actually. I do not care much, what I care was faster finish that 8 cartons of books. Luckily, the cuts were all minor and not major. Plus I sprain my muscle...wait...can I use the word 'sprain'? It doesn't feel suitable to it. I do not know how to explain. What I know is that I can not carry heavy things using my right arm for days>< It'd be painful and strength-less.
I must make myself a mental note that not to be careless any more!

Tired~

Gotta go, peeps. Good night! 

I haven't had my own time to spend since I started working at Popular although I enjoyed it very much. But the over-times made me feel like wanna die there and then. May be I had chosen the wrong outlet as the stupid 1 Malaysia Book Voucher had started and there are a whole lot of students in Malaysia@_@
Everybody likes new places. Aeon Shopping Centre is new and therefore, everyone started to fill up this shopping complex. They seems to forever have nothing to do and forever have unfinished stuffs to buy. Goddamnit!

I told my Assistant Manager and Supervisor that I am going to work until the end of April. And then Manager came to know this news today. While I was away from work, she had made compliments about me to my Supervisor. She told her that I did not keep my promise to work until May. She looked unsatisfied on my behavior. Well, I knew that this day will come. And then she will be hating me for the next one month until I am vanish from there. The starting of my worst nightmare had just begun... *Sigh* I wish I have the courage to shake that feeling off and continue to lead my life. I wish I could. But this ain't my nature. I am the worry first-decisions last-type. How can I not forget what she'd said to my Supervisor? I know, she treated every part-timers that way. But I still can't shake that feeling off of me. I seek help, guidance, comfort! I really need it. Or else I don't really know how to react><

How I wish I could turn back time to where I first came to interview. If I had rejected this offer and look for other jobs which are nearer to where I stay, then I would not have these kind of worries and problems anymore. At least I might find some time to entertain meself eh?

Alrighty~ Gotta go peeps. I had over-time tomorrow. Good night,people!

Love,
LianQing aka Young =)

I feel helpless whenever you had problems. I am doubting whether I am a friend or not. Friends help each other, but I didn't. I can't. I wanted to but I can't. I got hurt whenever you are in devastating mood. I feel so helpless and useless. I can't come up with something good to cheer you up. I wanted to know why but I just can't bring the word out to my mouth. I do not want you to think of me as a busybody. But I care for ya! I wanna know why. In the mean time, I, too, do not want you to remember the sad memory or perhaps angry memories. I am in a dilemma right now. Finally, I chose to be silent......

Argh! I'm gonna fuckin' freakin' out now! I woke up at ten, wasted a few hours of my time sleeping! Damn! I hate that job! I do not wanna work anymore. I decided to quit, but, what kind of excuses I should give? I need a persuasive excuse to free me from the hell. *Sigh* It's getting kinda lame these days. Suddenly changing the over-time forms without letting us know. I checked the stupid list! I did check. I am not the kind of person would just fake and pretend that I do not know. I do not like people thinking bad about me. I hate it when people did that way. I really hate it. And then there's a phone call saying I have over-time today. The Hell?! How should I know? I thought I do not have over-time today. My over-time starts on tomorrow. And continue 'til Sunday. It's always that way. Then you called suddenly and dropped a bombshell on me. Is it fair? You tell me! The salary is not that high and I have tonnes of heavy works gotta do. I decided to let my outlet head know that I am finishing the job off until end of April with the reason my mother wants me to quit. And I cannot wait any longer to find my university. That's it. Case closed!

I am off today! And so there's no outing with my friends, I decided to stay at home. Feel the warmth of it. I haven't felt it since I started working. *Sigh*

I really hate it when I knew Janet was going to work at another place instead of working with me at Popular. I did not know then, that I can reject the job if I don't wanna work. Now, I fully regretted it!

Today, after my guitar class, that's after 8pm, I had my dinner together with my family.

After dinner and done doing the dishes, I decided to have a sit in my hall to relax. To chill out and to clear my mind from things. The hall is one of my favourite places in the house to go to although the house is small. *Laughs*
It's because I had so used to sitting there alone watching the light and bring myself away from reality. Feel the quietness and calmness in it. It is the best way to keep me from those hectic lives. And the best way to drift away from thoughts=)

I enjoy the quiet environment actually, that is what I prefer although you may find me talking and laughing a lot. But the truth is that, I am never a social type. I hate to mix around with people, especially getting know a friend. I do not go along with someone that easily. It takes time for me to fully understand a person, how he works or may be is made off. *Smirk* As I am writing this, I drift away again. This whole passage is a bit confusing, there is no starting, no middle and no the end.

And so I end it!

Good night...